phantom of opera

the music.
the delicate truth of it all.
so lovin.
of a beast to lust for a beauty.
i wonder if i did.
close your eyes and surrender to ur darkest dreams.
(:
im upset.
very upset.
i aint gonna hide it.
):
sighs*

hearing wot deb told me today.
really humiliated me to d deepest depths.
she tried to use me to destroy someone's rship.
now here she is tryin to ruin mine.
im honest- it was almost destroyed.
i dunno.
how come his mom doesnt like me?
how come i deserved all this?
thr's no future in being with him anymore.
it obvious.
i aint gonna hide tt sadness.
i cant.
not anymore.
leaving him would free him to find a better gal dan me.
sometimes, fate just opposes our fantasy.
our dreams.
):
i really love him.
but mayb like wot bestie said.
sometimes you cant hold onto things you want so badly cos mayb it aint meant to b yours no matter how much you love it or want it.
in her deepest lair of thoughts, she screams.
shes lost.
shes upset.
shes all you think shes not.